Back at it

I have been so overwhelmed and grateful to each and every new reader and subscriber to this blog.  In recent months I have waded through one of the worst spells with depression in years.  I just disappeared inside myself.  I was not engaged in my day to day life.  I was in total task mode, doing what I needed to do for my family and that’s about it.  It was a long, tough Fall.  Since Christmas things have shifted in my energy and mindset and I feel like I’m back to me again.

During those long weeks of wondering what the hell was wrong with me, I just unplugged.  I was actually worried about myself.  I’m used to having a few bad days but then they pass and I feel fine again.  I was considering going to my doctor for some different medications but the whole idea of running the gauntlet of drugs sorting out what drug and in what dose made things much worse in my mind.  I toughed it out.  In toughing it out, I stepped away from almost anything creative, including this blog.  I checked in, responded to comments and thanked the universe for allowing me to have this space.  It’s been over 3 years of writing this blog.  On the very first day from the very first post, all I wanted was to create a space where childhood sexual abuse could be talked about openly with a healing energy.  We are not alone and we are not few.  It’s a sad reality.

Anyway, I just wanted to get back on here and say hi.  My heart is full of gratitude for those that come here, share, support and heal.  I feel that I am finding my creative mojo again.  I feel like I can open up and move forward feeling a sense of flow instead of being overwhelmed by trying to think of something to write about.  Depression sucks.  The way each day can feel so long and empty and just bleed into the next without purpose or passion.  I’m glad I’ve moved past that and hope I don’t feel that way again for a long, long while.

Thank you to those that have subscribed to Finding Center.  It’s inspiring and exciting to be part of a healing journey with all of you.  I have so much more to say. That’s a good thing.  I’ll be looking forward to sharing with all of you.  <3