After my last post I received such a flood of support and love from all directions. I heard from immediate family, friends and people that have been in my life since I was a kid. I find that I am also connecting with other survivors of childhood sexual abuse. I can’t express how important that [...]
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It seems apparent to me that the wealth of knowledge out there does not supersede the many hard wired beliefs ingrained in us from birth. It’s not just about habits in this case but the understanding of truth as it relates to personal identity. Of course there are the huge belief systems around religion, national [...]
Read More...Choosing to put myself out in a vulnerable place so I can articulate some heavy issues has made me vulnerable in a totally unexpected way. I find that I’m very aware of the energy around me in the moment. This can make things complicated when I’m trying to stay open. I have to figure out [...]
Read More...Strangely, today came together with a fluidity that brought me forward in many ways. I am feeling satisfied that I finally posted some more details about my abuse. It’s not a pat on the back kind of thing, but more a right of passage kind of thing. My next level of dealing with my past [...]
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I’m still so in awe and appreciate the wonderful way that the universe works. While in Argentina there were a series of events that happened that I thought were “delays” or hassles but they turned out to be blessings. I thought I had a viable plan to explore Western Argentina for three weeks with my [...]
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“Get it Together Lady!”. These are words I’ve been saying to myself for the past few weeks. I came back from Argentina with so much perspective on my own capabilities and lots of ideas to share. Then I became totally overwhelmed by it all and backed away from my blog completely. Very counter productive. I [...]
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It took a long time after my dad was deported for me to stop looking over my shoulder. I just didn’t believe that he was really gone. In this state of wanting to open up and allow myself to develop normal relationships, I had to stop looking back. I had to believe that he was [...]
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Thank you to the universe for presenting me with the opportunity to learn that both love and loss are essential. In opening my heart and allowing myself to give of myself freely, I opened a door for the possibility that things would not go as I expected. I brought into my home a family in [...]
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